This is new. I'm no longer in WI. At least until the end of the month this is something new. Then it'll be back to the same ole' same ole'

Same ole' with different things mixed in I suppose. Needing a new job for one. Trying to find that job is proving harder than expected and you'd think people would be trying to get things all squared away for fall right now but they are most definitely not.

I'm preoccupied with other things. Other more pressing things currently. Constantly overthinking...and wishing love was as easy as people make it out to be. Or wishing that other things wouldn't get in the way and it could be pure in that way. Just you and another - without being tarnished by lovers past or experiences. But life doesn't work that way. I would be lying if I said I didn't feel a little shorted in love, not any fault of my own or really any other - just the idea that my original chance my less tarnished less complicated chance seemed to pass me by. I am getting this second chance - which proves somethings may just be meant to be - but...still makes it a little more stressful. A little harder than it had to have been. It is in a way disappointing. But I'm still grateful & lucky to have someone that knows me...loves me...even if it gets harder at times its still worth it to me.

Have a wedding or two coming up. Trying to find that summer job. Enjoying the California. Going in the hot tub later. Sitting in a large house in the desert. And the sun is finally out. Decent.